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[26 Apr 2016|08:09am]

I love helping people

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[13 Apr 2016|02:52am]

I am so tired but I cannot sleep. I am just too amped up and anxious!

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[11 Apr 2016|03:06am]

I believe in you.

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Just clarify things and I'll leave you alone [12 Jan 2016|07:11am]

I find that passive aggressive behavior probably pisses me off more than someone being a flat out dick to my face. At least they tell me what is on their mind instead of me just guessing. I am tired of these games everyone wants to play with me. I used to just sit back and deal with it but my patience for people is growing very thin and for once, I do not mind letting go of people. It is disappointing sure but I am not going to be treated like a fool or a stepping mat. I certainly don't have time for childish games. I will continue on and do my thing.

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Working hard to get out of bed [02 Jan 2016|06:26pm]

I hate when the depression comes back full force. I was just hoping it'd be gone for longer. I gotta keep myself motivated despite that it's back. It's incredibly hard.. but just like any other time I won't let myself give up.
I won't let it stop me damnit.

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All I do IS consider people and their feelings for fucks sake [03 Jun 2015|11:10am]
[ mood | distressed ]

I'm so tired of being called inconsiderate. Anytime I want to do something to benefit myself I am inconsiderate.Like I have never been considerate of anyone before. I am always thinking of others but that just gets ignored. I am not allowed to think of myself. I am not allowed to take risks cause it might hurt others...never mind my mental health. I guess everyone wants me to just shut up and deal with it. I am going to remain depressed all my life because I am not allowed to take chances.

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[13 Mar 2012|07:53pm]
[ mood | loved ]

I don't think I could be any happier with anyone else.

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[23 Sep 2010|07:31am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed.. something feels out of place.

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[13 Sep 2010|05:54pm]
[ mood | okay ]

So for school I have to come up with a mini book to write and print. I also am going to be drawing the pictures for it.
I decided to do a poem/story in the style of a childrens book.


There once was a little miss bat who's heart was stolen by a mister rat.

She told him the heart was rare and needed special care.

It certainly was one of a kind and nothing like it you could find.


It held quite a lure and the rat longed for something so pure.

Being the infamous slime, he took it by crime.

This rat had such the nerve to take something he did not deserve.


The bat went on for days trying to get it back in many ways.

The rat let the heart begin to crack since special care he did lack.

Little miss bat began to relent and endure the horrible torment.


Her heart had become so tender and she almost spoke her surrender.

Until one day a mister bat had become concerned and to her her heart was returned.

He had carefully given it repair and again the heart was in shape to wear.


Little miss bat had faith once more and this mister bat she began to adore.

He showed her to protect her heart and from it she should never part.

Again in happiness she believed and never more was she deceived.

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i luff this song [15 Apr 2009|04:20pm]
[ mood | flirty ]


You are the girl that I've been dreaming
of ever since I was a little girl.
You are the girl that I've been dreaming
of ever since I was a little girl.
One!
I'm biting my tongue.
Two!
He's kissin' on you.
Three!
Oh, why can't you see?
One! Two! Three! Four!
Word's on the streets and it's on the news:
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.
He's got two left feet and he bites my moves.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance! dance! dance! dance!
The second I do, I know we're gonna be through.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.
He don't suspect a thing. I wish he'd get a clue.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance! dance! dance! dance!
You are the girl that I've been dreaming
of ever since I was a little girl.
You are the girl that I've been dreaming
of ever since, ever since
One!
I'm biting my tongue.
Two!
He's kissin' on you.
Three!
Oh, why can't you see?
One! Two! Three! Four!
Word's on the streets and it's on the news:
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.
He's got two left feet and he bites my moves.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance! dance! dance! dance!
The second I do, I know we're gonna be through.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.
He don't suspect a thing. I wish he'd get a clue.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance! dance! dance! dance!
One!
You're biting my tongue.
Two!
I'm kissin' on you.
Three!
Is he better than me?
One! Two! Three! Four!
Word's on the streets and it's on the news:
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.
He's got two left feet and he bites my moves.
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance! dance! dance! dance!
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[27 Dec 2008|07:17pm]
fuck man..

my crazy depression is back.
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[07 Oct 2008|02:19am]
[ mood | weird ]

holy shi0t.. i was reading my oldest journal.. my very first one.. and.. its fucking CRAZAY

i mean.. damn i was such a dumb kid.. but damnit, i put up with a lot of BS

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[23 Aug 2007|02:00am]
[ mood | crushed ]

i dont want to be alive.

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[09 Mar 2005|11:53pm]
Wow..the postal service is real good at calming me down..
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[09 Mar 2005|11:43pm]
Im such a god damn baby.


Running.



and i go curl up in a ball..trying to hide even more. Crying like a fucking baby.


A baby.

Thats what i fucking am.


Right? You all say it all the time. Just not directly.


Well Im running again. Like always. Im wallowing in sadness tonight. Yes. Pitiful.


Comment with horrible things to say to me. I welcome it.
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[06 Dec 2004|08:56am]
[ mood | apathetic ]

You've done it to yourself.

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I need an actual dream dictionary.. [15 Nov 2004|08:28am]
[ mood | curious ]

Bear

To dream that you are being pursued or attacked by a bear, denotes aggression, overwhelming obstacles and competition. You may find yourself in a threatening situation. Alternatively, bears symbolize the cycle of life and death and renewal. It may signal of period of introspection and thinking. The dream may also be a pun on "bare". Perhaps you need to bare your soul and let everything out into the open.

Flood

To see a raging flood with its muddy debris, represents emotional issues and tension. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood for indications of where in your waking life may a situation be the source of stress and tension.


Cooking

To dream that you are cooking, signifies your desire desire to influence others in such a way that they will like you or become dependent on you. Alternatively, it represents your nurturing side or wanting to be nurtured. You want to be loved.


Water

To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To dream that water is boiling, suggests that you are expressing some emotional turmoil. It also may mean that feelings from your unconscious are surfacing and ready to be acknowledged.

To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.

To dream that water is rising up in your house, signifies your struggles and overwhelming emotions.



Train

To see a train in your dream, represents conformity and go along with what everyone else is doing. You have the need to do things in an orderly and sequential manner. In particular, if you see a freight train, then it refers to the burdens and problems that you are hauling around



Food

To dream that you are hording or storing food, indicates a fear of deprivation. You do not trust what you already have.

To see or eat stale food in your dream, suggests that you are feeling sluggish and emotionally drained. You need to be invigorated and revitalized.


Footprints

To see footprints in your dream, symbolize pride. and heritage. It may also suggest that you are following someone else's footsteps and hint toward your lack of originality and initiative. Alternatively, footprints indicate something or someone you have missed. Perhaps someone is never quite there for you.

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[14 Nov 2004|02:28pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

holy shit i forgot go do the < / b >

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Oh god ...I hate being a girl whenever this time comes up.

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[11 Oct 2004|04:39am]
[ mood | bored ]

God, Im bored.

So fuckin bored.
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My birthday is coming up and...I want a kitten. But my moms all "no no bitch bitch no bitch bitch random words"

So Im all like " .....;_______;"

Then....I dont want my birthday to be coming either cuz...I dont know..I dont feel right :/
For some odd reason.

Im just stupid.
I feel like I've lost a lot of friends though. And I really wish I hadnt. Some reasons I cant help.

But yeah....I dont even wanna have a party.

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[16 Sep 2004|08:40am]
[ mood | hungry ]

Mrs. Moore is a ditz.


And Im hungry.....

hmmm.... ::scratches chin::

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